The only
reason I quoted this from my very favorite, Nietzsche’s thought process about
individualism is that it always reminds and make me realize that I haven’t
developed any individuality of my own self and refused to pay the price for
it.. Being a ‘Wimp’ and a USELESS BUM. And I started hating to
celebrate my own birthday after this self-surveillance, in spite of achieving
whatever I have, which i haven't yet anything. So why shud i be so gung-ho
about wanting to celebrate my birth?
As a mere
fact i don’t think my born calls for a celebration, In effect when i have
absolutely no control or no contribution in the process of what, who and why my
parents gave me birth, why should i make such a big deal about celebrating it?
As they have contributed rather i would say devoted their lives for my
upbringing since my birth, i have no right to celebrate anything about myself
if i have at least not being worth of their values and hard work!
Bala is one of the greatest & special
person sent for me with my Parents, GODBROTHER,
MAMAJI, Annie, Reggie & Shammy. Who has been & are the key
of my exploration to various aspects of life, and exploring my own certain
talents & also heartening them. but i didn’t even try to push myself a lil,
instead i caused much more aggravated damages on their terms. so most of the
things I’ve done were all on other's account and i only have creditability for
being a worthless & non-achiever. Which hurted them and i want to put a
full stop to it, and at least unlade them forever.
I cheated on
this girl who did everything possible and beyond that, just to make me feel
good every-single-day in all these years since we met. She worthlessly put all
her creativity, efforts, time and most importantly LOVE to make this day (few
years ago) so special that it actually is the Biggest Surprise of my Life
rather i would say that 'Monumental!'
The only female after my mother, to whom I’ve
devoted myself!
If i gather
the pieces of my GODBROTHER's youth,
all of 'em are dedicated to felicitate me. when i asked him, 'how come u don’t
get mad at me, even after i do so many wrong things?', he replied 'i wouldn’t
even regret if i have to Burn in Hell for you, coz' you r my brother and i love
you' I’ve never seen and i doubt would ever see a BROTHER with such modesty and
a personality which is so Ironical. and i will be surely burn in hell and
punished badly for at least not being 1/4 worth of what he did for me!
And my AMMA she has faced the 'HORRORS' of
this world right from the day before i was born till date, if i start writing
about it you need to spare a lifetime. i owe my life and everything to
her.
These above
facts kind of sums up my feelings about birthdays. I consider a greeting for my
birthday as a truly ugly reminder that I am getting that much older and that
much more nearer to death and consequently I have that much less time to do
whatever I want to do. i will celebrate everything about myself and make y'all
my lovers and haters to join me when I’ll be a prime mover, Hard Worker, when i
can achieve the pure art with my gifted talents and skills, when i will never
be mitigated by others, when i will oppose the councils or committees of
individuals which lead to compromise and mediocrity and "watering
down" the very completed vision.
When i will
learn to and will rail against convention.
Till then
please don’t waste your time and efforts to type, think, copy-paste, forward me
messages to greet, (Especially who got a reminder from FACEBOOK and Other Social
networking Sources – Can F*&K OFF!) thinking it will make me feel good
or like a star, it's just going to worsen my day!
