Since after a self-surveillance I happened to
develop this belief towards the concept of Birthdays, that the obsession for
birthdays most primarily comes from an intense fear of an individual that his
or her existence might not matter to anybody else. So at least on that one
particular day if an X number of people greet, it will make you feel like a
star at least for that day and then you can wait like a nobody for another year
to go by to become a star for yet another one day. For most of you It would be
a crap, but it Is a fact to a great extend. If at all anyone needs to
celebrate, they and their near ones should celebrate their achievements and not
that they are born. One is just happened to be born the way millions of people,
animals and insects get born every day.
I hardly wish anyone on any occasions
coz’ I just hate the idea of doing it for the sake of it and it annoys
me if anyone wishes me too.
But as I
believe in celebrating one’s achievement to the fullest, this part of my
writing is purely dedicated to this female, who’s not only beautiful but a
magnificent creation of GOD’s artistic aesthetic. I use such words not because
of any certain reasons but for the real outburst of Respect, Admiration &
Jealousy.
So long I’ve
got the most of the best, important and necessary things or leanings, firstly
from my Mother, GOD-Brother and my Dearest & most feared ‘MAMAJi’ and
eventually from everywhere & everyone I met. But I absorbed and implied
those learnings after a very long time, sometimes it was too late and sometimes
it was balanced. But I think and believe that every GOOD thing come out of me
is only because of others and ‘iam’ solely responsible for all the BAD. And
this female had a Far-Reaching impact on me all along.
She’s one of
those females on this planet, whom I call ‘The Quintessential Beauty’ , by not
only considering her physical appearance but, by her Attitude. But yes, when I
say BEAUTY, it just takes me back in the memory of how I went crazy about her
for the first time. I had this DVD back then, which had almost all the videos
of MICHAEL JACKSON and it was ‘THE
WAY YOU MAKE ME FEEL’ I used to watch it regularly because of.. Obviously THE KING OF
POP and his
moves but I was in love with the model Tatiana
Thumbtzen who is in
the video.
God.. I was into a deep mesmerization back then. It was her Figure and Hair.. Oh! It’s Terrific! Now I met this girl quite a few times before
the day I thoroughly observed her, it just happened.. It wasn’t intentional,
and I don’t feel CHEAP about it. You great things just Happens! Her physique,
especially her Figure resembled a lot to of Tatiana’s to me. I think it was a sheer and absolute
impulse, I was following at that time, with that video thing and this girl. It
was Crazy man and I love it!
She had the
longest and beautiful hair I’ve ever seen till then. God would’ve given her
some brains while chopping it. I hardly remember she ever had been to a beauty
parlor then. Yeah I remember once, years ago, we met at a Movie theatre and she
was all dressed up nice and had some hair done and the eyebrows too. i never
saw her like that before so it was strange for me, I found the whole thing so
bizarre that I just bursted out laughing and kept taunting her ‘BADLY’ infornt of her & my friends, Little did I realize that the last laugh will be on me…!
I have seen
her struggling through her toughest times when everyone & everything around
her has been isolated, including me, to a larger extend that one could have
easily expected to be BROKE! Things went HayWay,
For a lack of a better word ‘Screwed up’. But she faced it, with all the courage and patience.
Which I actually think was unconventional at her age then. For me it had been
& will always be an exclusive & valiant example of the quote from Pacino “there are two kinds of people in this
world: those who stand up and face the music, and those who run for cover.
Cover is better” and like
the protagonist in the movie Charlie
Simms she refused
the advice and faced the music. So her so called ’Friends’ back then can ‘GO TO HELL!’ now.
Now having
said all these things about her obviously I would feel or want to be with such
a Respectable & beautiful female I’ve known ever. Yes I wanted to, but
here’s the thing why I wrote earlier that she had a Far-Reaching
impact on me all along. Few days ago I wished someone on a social networking site
on her birthday, I wrote something which was quite considerably good. This
female sent me a message next day that “People
actually start believing d way u write Abt thm…..u should be a writer… Who can
write all fiction..” the reason I
shared this is only because what I feel about her or if I want to be with her
has only been subjective, but what she made me realize was the absolute truth,
which broke my my illusion, that she is a kind of much supremist that I don’t even have the key authenticity to
think so, to be with her. Im really thankful to her and will always owe this to
her till my last breathe.
The only two
reasons I will keep celebrating her birthday is for me she’s the epitome of beauty with honor and she shares her birthday with
one of the Biggest star on the Planet,
S R K !
All these things are the
real contribution and struggle towards one’s own immortality of their
individualism, which lives forever. And for me they have re-defined the value
& importance of birth!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Annie!
I won’t say GOD BLESS YOU, coz’ you are the Blessed &
the CHOSEN one sent on this planet, BE WELL!
